Hello! I am a reptilian soul just passing through. I originally became a member of ISN (starseeds.net) and shared my story and my views on some things before signing up to ToS. Finding out that there are other spiritual websites can be a good thing for me, as I want to spread my story and message to whomever I can.
I feel I am a protectorate of sorts, I am self sacrificing for the beings I love. I live a life of love for all of Nature/life/creation, yet I am confident and strong when I need to be. Like a mother wolf becoming fierce to scare away a strange animal wandering by, to protect her cubs.
Basic details about me are that I am good at explaining things clearly, I am good at understanding thoughts and feelings, and I used to be a good fighter. I take care of a green iguana named Scales, who has his own room, high quality, Mega Ray 160w & 275w basking flood lamps and he eats all organic produce. I love animals, but especially reptiles.
I tend to be a confident individual, always aware of my surroundings, but never paranoid. I am loyal, and I like to think I am honorable with my moral views and decisions. I get real focused while under intense pressure.
I don’t watch TV at all, but I do play a few video game, which satisfies my competitive and strategic nature at times.
I like to induce meditative states THROUGH INGESTING A CERTAIN SUBSTANCE (4-6 times a year), which was the main factor in me finding out that I, in fact, emit a strong, reptile based energy when I connect to my true self.
I’ve had 2 POSITIVE outer body experiences in my lifetime that I hold very dear to me, which will be briefly mentioned in the next question, “Why do you think you’re a starseed.” One was when I was seven, and the other was 5 or so years ago.
I am a vegan dieter, I was a vegetarian before that, I ate only fish for meat before that, I was a meat eater eating organic before that, and I was your average meat eater before that. I’ve been vegan for almost 2 years now!
~~I worship Nature, which can also be seen as Creation/The Universe/All things/ect./ect.
I was too young to even to begin to interpret this experience, and so all I did was go around saying to myself, “Reptiles are the answer!”
Two weeks (or so?) after that experience, I began to experience very painful, torturous experiences, night by night. I’ll quote myself from another post to clarify…
–“After experiencing my first entity visit, I had a sort of “backlash” effect. At such a young age, I began to receive experiences every night. Horrid, despicable acts of human cruelty toward life in which I look through the eyes of the victim, and ended in death each time whether it be human or animal. The worst part is when they smile while doing what they do. That simply irks me to a degree that I aught to stop talking and take a break right now.
I experienced this for an entire year after my visit and to this day, I am convinced these experiences truly happened on Earth. Not too surprising that would be true, especially in our human condition, but to experience it is something that cannot be put in words. The victims’ entire life was crammed into my experience within seconds before I was thrown into its’ body, and the last few bloody minutes were slowly shown to me like a movie, except this was living experience with feeling, emotional and physical. There was no controlling my actions or thoughts, I was just along for the ride.”–
Instead of losing my memory of the torturous experiences, I lost memory of my physical reality outside of these experiences when they started exceeding 3 experiences a night. I can’t remember anything significant that happened during this part of my childhood, besides the visions and waking up, sweating and silently screaming so I wouldn’t wake my parents, to then look at the digital clock and realize that only 5-10 minutes had past since I last looked at the clock… all to calm down, go back to bed and have it happen again. I would say it got up to 40-50 visions a night before it plateaued and declined very gradually to 0. About 8-12 months total… but I can’t be sure. I explain this more in depth in this link here…
I was so young at the time it was happening, so all I really was affected by was the fact that I had to experience the pain of the experiences, rather than trying to understand them and apply them to the way I thought. So the more I aged, the more I deciphered them and tried to attain knowledge from it all. But what I ended up doing was hating humanity with a very firm attitude.
ecause I had no guidance through these spiritual matters, I was left to sharing my true thoughts with no one… and so, I continued hating humanity throughout most of my life. All the way until July of 2014, though I started working on ridding myself of it after my second outer body experience 5 or so years ago, which I will explain later.
My hatred was justified at first because I was the victim, but as I simmered in negativity throughout my years of aging, my justification was only a means to hold onto my past traumas, the torturous experiences, which kept me in that state of utter negativity. Negative thoughts and feelings became more negative and intense as I grew more and more disconnected with myself. It was early on(10 or 11 years old) that I recognized myself as a part of the humanity I hated so much, and so I hated myself even more, for being a part of a species that causes so much suffering inside and outside of themselves, and then being powerless to change any of it. I felt I was evil as well, being a part of an evil species. I held my torturous experiences close so that I could fuel my justifications for my resentment towards humanity. How could I approve of my own species while humans wear a smile on their face as they indulge in their desire to cause suffering for the mere pleasure of doing so? I could not, and so I thought that hating humanity was the only emotional answer. Though I hated humanity and myself, I still never TRULY desired the suffering of any human being. Even with this in mind, I found myself indulging in thoughts of causing the same kind of suffering inflicted on me(the being’s body I was in) in the torturous visions. I got to the point in my late teens to where I thought a random mass killing fueled by my rage would be the best course of action, since I wanted to die anyway.
I’m proud to say that in all my years indulging in negative thoughts, I have never hurt any person on purpose, EVER. It’s all because I kept with my moral code no matter what. All my hatred had justifications based on alleviating the planet from the suffering caused by humanity, so even though my ideals were twisted, my decision to never lose my deep care for all of life kept me from hurting any one human being. I even saved someone from potentially drowning in a pool when I was young, even though I was deeply filled with the same hatred I’m speaking of. I made clear to myself many times, my natural desire to prevent all meaningless suffering.
I hated humanity all the way up until a year and a half ago. 7/12/2014 is the exact date actually. I was trying to rid myself of my hatred after my second positive outer body experience about 4 or so years ago. I will explain. My second and most recent outer body experience was what I would call, a Consciousness Connection Experience, with a reptile being within the next dimensional/spiritual reality, or whatever you want to call it. Instead of writing it, I will give a link explaining a very, VERY, brief summary of my experience.
I’ll make my point short and sweet. This being I connected with is a reptile consciousness that was the most spectacular being I have ever came into contact with. When I showed him how much I resented humanity, he acted like he was terribly insulted, I wondered why and explained my reasoning of why I hated humanity through my thoughts and energy, and all he did was convey that his species doesn’t hate anything that lives. That’s all I needed. That visit was the entire reason I decided to confront my own hatred toward humanity and myself, and to work against it. Without him, I would have, no doubt, continued down that negative path, and would never have discovered important aspects of myself that led me to discover that I emit a reptile energy when in a heightened state of awareness.
Which brings me to the spiritual experience that made me come to this realization. It is described in this link.
This experience is what guaranteed to me, that I am a soul of reptile origins. Before this experience, I have always only considered myself a human being who really loves reptile beings, and that considering myself anything else would be running away from the reality that I am human. I didn’t want to run away from the negative human reputation that effects me so much, by considering myself to be something else. I couldn’t, not without experiencing something that told me this first. I was a fool, because my consciousness connection experience years ago, exposed myself to my true energy within another reality, and I should have picked up on why I thought that great being to be an older, and more experienced version of myself… Like my spiritual father or older brother. The invisible tail I felt I had since I was a child was a dead giveaway too, but nothing compares to clarification I got from this spiritual experience.
I try not to focus on beliefs. I know wht I experience, and that others might not agree to this, but I feel that I don’t reach out of the perameters of what I do and don’t know. “Belief” implies that I don’t really know… faith into something I don’t understand. I dont’ believe in ETs, I know they exist. I don’t believe in energy, I know there is energy. Others may disagree, but I speak from experience.
Needless to say, I don’t override other people’s mindsets with my own, so I simply like to state in conversations that these things are my beliefs, and not to be taken as fact… but in my mind the things I say I know, I do know, because I’ve experienced it. These things are usually conceptual and are up for interpretation, and I get along fine with that fact. I try to keep a clear head on what I do know and what I don’t know, but there is always room for leeway… I have a very open mind, and appreciate a good conversation with opposing ideals and perspectives of reality and self.
Hello, I finally created a new poem, hope you all enjoy!
I feel this energy around me,
it’s so detailed, malleable… easy to shape,
beautiful in it’s presence, everything,
the good and bad, swirling around me.
I grin… but so what?
New life sprouts and joy is created,
celebrations ensues and everyone…[Read more]
positiveevitisop replied to the topic Barrier Work Basics — Energy Field Awareness Meditaion in the forum Psychic Defence 9 months, 2 weeks ago
@Barra, haha, I made it when members of another spiritual website were being outlandishly deceived and spiritually toyed with by not so good people. I made this thread back then and spread it around in hopes that people would learn to be more spiritually self-aware and of their surroundings.
Thanks for reading!
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Hello, this the only poem I have ever written, and this one is about a year and a half old. Enjoy!
All the pain I see,
All the pain I am,
I felt you so well,
But now I lay numb.
I still feel you so,
As I did for so many years,
But as I feel you now,
I’m unable to shed my tears.
I just lay numb,
I just lay drooling in pain
Hello everybody! The purpose of this thread is to discuss the widespread hatred towards reptilian beings that is/has been consuming a large part of the growing, mainstream spiritual community. I would also like to discuss it’s theorized purpose, and how it effects/will affect the spiritual growth of humanity.
I believe there are two c…[Read more]
positiveevitisop started the topic Barrier Work Basics — Energy Field Awareness Meditaion in the forum Psychic Defence 10 months ago
The purpose of this thread is to go through a general visualization meditation that will help certain people to start or become more aware of their energetic field in order to implement barriers, and such, more effectively and smoothly.
If you already know your meditation routine, do what you do to get into that…[Read more]